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karma

people who don’t know you well
say you seem like such
a loving husband, devoted father
the kind of guy who stops to chat
and flash a nice smile
when most wouldn’t bother

but they don’t know you
like i know you
they haven’t seen
the things i’ve seen
your wife may not admit it
but she knows what i mean

the problem with you
is you believe
your own lies
tell them over and over
then play dumb, deny
feign surprise

so don’t think
that i don’t know
what you took from me
even after all
of our generosity

but that’s ok
cause one day
karma is gonna
crash your party
one day, sweetie
you
are really
gonna be sorry

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flawed

i am not the pretty girl
with smooth hair
or a perfect tan
nor am i the smart girl
responsible and sure
following her plan

i guess i’m not trying
as hard as you think i could
to get from the things i do
to the things that i should

sometimes i’m short sighted
and don’t think things through
and i end up hurting someone
that i would never, ever want to

sometimes i say things
without letting them
run through my head
or i’m careless with my inflection
and it changes the meaning
of the words i’ve just said

i would never mean to be callous
to someone that i love
or have them believe
it was their feelings
that i hadn’t thought of

because i can usually understand
all sides of an issue
and often know how one would feel
before they even do
so those times when i’m thoughtless
always deeply upset me
that isnt the person
that i try to be

so i hope you can see
how sorry i am
accept and forgive me
if you think you can

because i believe that we’re human
and that we’re all flawed
but my innocent intentions
aren’t some kind of fraud

i’m a big hearted person
whos almost always kind
i’m reasonable and understanding
and you’ll come to find
that i want the best for you
i’d do almost anything
to see you shine
and i couldn’t be more proud
that you would want me
to call you mine

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how do you

how do you say
you’re sorry
to someone in your past
when the years
since you’ve seen them
have gone by so fast
would they even care
years later
to hear that they were right
would you even want them to know
it took you this long
to have finally
seen the light

i would always
play the victim
the one who was wronged
i’m able to see that
now that it’s been so long

i took you for granted
i always wanted more
than whatever you were offering
i was constantly standing
with one foot outside the door

i would always say
i was tired of trying
to be someone i wasnt
but that wasnt the issue
now i think
that i was just lying

that was my cop out
my shield from the blame
i didn’t see it at the time
and that really is
such a shame

how do you reconcile your mind
with what you’ve learned
and what you’ve done wrong
when you’ve casually abandoned
somewhere you know now
that you belonged

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apologies

i dont want to hear
your apologies anymore
i’m shaking them off
heading for the door
i’m sick of this nonsense
that much i know for sure

you tell me you love me
while your tears fall to the floor
i say i guess you
should’ve thought about that
before

cause i wont be stifled
or kept in a cage
i’m too young for that
maybe you should go looking
for someone your own age

cause i know youre thoughtful
but you dont act that way
and i’m not naive enough
to think you’ll start to someday

youre an old dog
full of old tricks
and the stories of all
of the wounds
that you’ve licked

i’m sorry wont cut it
it’s just not enough
go ahead play the victim
as i gather my stuff

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sorry

i am so sorry
that i cannot seem
to make myself be
what it is
i know you need

and i am sorry, too
that i cannot
bring myself to be
a better person
and let go of you

you may say
not to worry
as if your heart
is hard as rock
and can not get hurt

but i know better
i’ve seen through
a weakness
in your eyes
you may not know it
but you’re
telling me lies.

lies
of the mind
the ones that
toss out reasoning
and hold on tight
to whatever sounds right
to get you
whatever it may be
at the time
that feels right

my fear is that you
may begin to regret
how invested
you’ve become
through the time
that we’ve spent

more so, i fear
that i may begin
to pull back
or move on
or get bored with you, dear

i love how we laugh
and how our bodies
just fit
but i warned you
at the start
that this would be it

we would joke
and have fun
and let this course
take its run
find someplace to hide
share stories, confide

but i am not looking
to find that one
and baby,
if you were him
i’d already have run.

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